Sunday, August 12, 2012

Guilty.

All the light has vanished
I have nowhere to return
I might as well end up as now
Withering ashes in my urn.
My heart feels as though
A vacuum is withheld
Raging inside
With a sadness, unquelled
The pain of this guilt
Is not one easily contained
It takes a long course of time
And much self restraint.
I grasp for my empty apologies
They scatter needlessly
They felt so important, meaningful
And I clung to them so frequently
Now my eyes can finally see
The lies I have told, unnoticed by me
I hadn't even realized
They sounded so fake
And felt so as well.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Just a random song I wrote.


Just a crack in the sidewalk
Weeds growing through
Never thought I'd met happiness
Until I, met, you
Although those pleasant times were short lived
You showed me your real side all too quick
And now I can't stop staring
Reality in the face

Give me a break
I don't want to take
Away the pain
Not a kiss
From those lips
That lie
To me
I thought inside I was broken
But, that was all untrue
Now I know, my happiness
Isn't based on you.

One foot forward
I make two steps back
With no more dreams, just nightmares
Painted in black
There were no pleasant times in this life
Only thing you're good for is causing me strife
So now I won't stop staring
Reality in the face

Give me a break
I don't want to take
Away the pain
Not a kiss
From those lips
That lie
To me
I thought inside I was to forget
But, that was all untrue
Now I know
My happiness
Isn't based on you

You still live in sweet innocence
But you're so blinded by ignorance
You'll never see what was in front of you

So please give me a break
I don't want to take
Away the pain
Not a kiss
From those lips
That lie
To me
I fixed myself
No help from you
I'll stand on my own
And I will choose
Every choice I have to make

Because now I know
Oh I know
My true happiness
Is only based on
Me.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Saturday, June 30, 2012

Apocalyptic.

Crashing, falling, fires ablaze
Stumbling, searching, memories in a haze
Tripping over my feet
Bodies in a sea of defeat
War raging round me
There is no time to flee.
Companions flinging
Firearms ringing
My hands clapping over my ears
It doesn't muffle out the sound
It just deepens my fears.
No one around me has awoken.
The sound finally stops.
My heart feels like it is choking
And to my knees I drop.
Is there even a reason
I'm the only one alive?
But why does that matter
When I already feel like I've died?

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Sunday, May 6, 2012

Macabre.

Music boxes,
Paper dolls,
Blood spraying
Along the walls.
Corpses laying
Abundant and dead
Lookalikes of mannequins
With decapitated heads.
Sightless eyes
Mouths agape
Limp, pale bodies
With no hope for escape.
No thoughts,
No feelings,
Just expressionless faces
Staring up at the ceiling.
Even the room is filled
With the scent of dead
Or maybe it's just me
I'm filled with all this dread.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Thursday, March 29, 2012

The darkness surrounds me.

The depth surrounds me, immersed with no chance of survival
I struggle, thrashing about in the pool in the terrifying abyss
I am alone, still I long for companions
The night approaches within minutes, eerie sounds following its arrival
My spine shivers, my shoulders shuddering so profusely and out of my control
The agonizing pain of the chilling liquid just caused more frustration
The numbness in my limbs growing ever more tedious as I flailed about
The water suddenly turned salty and splashed into my irises
Now the pain began reaching its peak, making my small body convulse
I begin to slip beneath the surface, the salty water filling my mouth, nose and eyes
My screams turn into bubbles, never to be heard by a soul
I attempt to swim towards the oxygen above, only to find the surface glossed over with ice
Using all the power I may muster, I begin repetitively beating the glass, to no avail
Suddenly, the pain vanishes, and my eyes feel heavy with the feel of exhaustion
The all the pain and numbness I had felt just seconds ago left me
The surface appears miles away, as my body falls downward, sinking into cooler parts of the liquid
The rush of relief I felt must have been happiness, I assured myself
My vision scans the water once more, taking everything in
My eyes close in a deep sleep as I drift away.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Thursday, March 22, 2012

One Leap.

One leap, sprung out
Arms spread wide, embracing the air as I fall
Nothing around me but the free wind
My hair flung back, mouth formed into a smile
Barely hearing my laughter over the roaring of the wind in my ears
One rush sends my body spinning like a roller coaster
Enhancing my childish glee and spirit
I curl my body into a ball
Increasing my speed and furthering my descent
I stretch my legs out, keeping my arms crossed tightly over my chest
I arc my back and shout, the thrill of this fall creating adrenaline
And sending it pumping through my veins
I close my eyes, hair whipping around my face
Enjoying every second of my body being flung downward
My body begins to slow as I approach the ground below
My feet carefully touch the soft grass and the rest of my body follows
I finally open my eyes, gazing at the fluttering feathers falling around me
I lay in the field, letting the breeze caress my body
My wings forming a circle around me.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>

Sunday, March 4, 2012

How Would You Feel?

How would you feel
If your whole world collapsed?
How would you feel
If your life was lost in the grass?
How would you feel
Without me around?

What if someday
I vanished from your world?
Not a memory
Or a thought, or a word.

Would you act any different?
Would you go on with your life?
Because there was never such a strong bond between us
Not like husband and wife.

Would I, do the same?
Forget everything we went through
All of it in vain?
Maybe I'd keep the memories close
But still never regret the path I chose
To move away from everything
Everyone I knew.

Your life would move on
As would mine
The last time our hearts touched
It was divine
But it's now yet another memory
Between you and I.

<Copyright Faith C. 2012>